Where do I put this?

I’ve managed to confuse myself by starting to use my xanga site again. I don’t know how many people keep up with both of them, and if I put something there, should I put it here too? Maybe I’ll just forget that one. I’ll start by reposting this here:

Scene

In the jigsaw puzzle on your basement table
(the one you started by candlelight last winter)
I’m the piece that belongs in the corner
over by the edge,
one in a myriad of
bits of cloudless sky blue.
If you notice me at all,
it’s because my cardboard layers
are slowly separating,
loosened by a toddler’s slobber,
nervous red fingernails, or
maybe the spreading condensation from a neglected glass of iced tea.

The first pieces placed are the obvious ones:
the horse’s face, the flashing scarlet of the woman’s dress,
the stable, solid lines of the edge.
And then the frustration of placing the commonplace:
using as a reference
uncertain, looping edges
that don’t complete an object

In my tumbled pile of blue i wait
for eyes perceptive enough
to make me fit.

If i could urge my paper fibers into motion
creep to the edge of this endless plateau of tableland
-wood grain showing conspicuously through the blue sky pure
in the hole that i leave-
and drop quietly to the
stains of the dusty second-hand carpet,
try out that existence for awhile…
Maybe then,
with the near-completion of a picture perfect scene
above me
Someone
might drop to their knees,
crawl around in the grime
and with searching fingers
…..find me.

9/09